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Left home at 10.45pm last nite... headed to Causeway point to catch Death Note 2 !! With my lucky buddies, Aung Latt, Yi Jie and Chen Geng... Sat thru the movie on the edge of our seats more than half of the time !!?? Hell yeah was it a good movie !!! Damn cool ending and stuff... Blew my brains out... Maybe it was juz all the hype of catching a sneak preview b4 any1 else, thats gotten me so pumped up abt it... But there's no denying that the movie ROCKS !!! So damn tempted to be the spoiler for you people on the movie... Its so goddamned shiok... so goddamned sad... and as expected, so goddamned smart... U ppl should go catch it ASAP !? Some parts, i'd cry if i were watching it with Nandhini... hell i won't wif my guy buddies... its a guy thing, obviously... abt being macho and all that crap.. anyways... the thing i love best about the movie was its unpredictable nature... though not as unpredictable as a war flick, still, its refreshing especially in comparrisson to stuffs like spiderman 3. I'm guessing i'm gonna like Death Note 2 better... (yep, its that good to make me say this). For those who noe what i love abt hero versus villain movies, then u noe what to expect of the characters in the movie... here's a clue, not a spoiler, the ending's fuckingly sad and pitiful... which is to me, juz plain beautiful... well, movie ended at 1.30am, me and the guys gave up on the lifts... and took the alternative route by walking down Causeway's carpark... so fun, heh... chatted all the way with aung latt and yijie, with chen geng going in a different direction, i then caught a cab and headed to KK hospital, had to supervise my baby bro alone... he's fine, juz undergoing treatment for a mild, common condition... for now, i'm back to restock for another night at KK tonight... at least i've eaten proper today... haiz, better get to packing my backpack... gotta go ppl, will further on when i get back... if i do, that is, coz taxi drivers drive like mad in the middle of the night... though its been fun, the movie, the sleepover and the taxi ride... heh

Its like 6 days b4 the official release date for Death Note 2, but i'm watching it today !! Invited whoever i cld, too bad to those who cldn't make it... Muahahaha... Still,, it doesn't help in any way with my anxiety wid spiderman 3, its like 5 F**KING months away.... Read some leaked information... From wad i've read, i'm gonna love this movie like mad when i watch it. Coz ppl die !!! HECK YEAH !! MAN THATS COOL !!! haha... u'd come to expect that from a pesimist like me... hah...my movie tonight is like at 11.10pm !!! my second midnight movie on my own.. YEAH !! so fun... alone at hm now... shit... haven't bathe Haq, my bro... better do it now... K. then... will tell u ppl how it goes... bye...

I don't feel right, i always say that, but its even more so these days... somethings wrong with me alrite... dunno wad... Emotions ? Health ? Soul ? Guilt ? I really do not know... though an old friend of mine returned recently, he's name's Suicide, getting the urge to pick up that blade again, eat that spoon of detergent, all that stuff... being treated like shit... not so bad lah, but in a way i really really hate... when something happens, like, say, u fight with me, the last thing you should do unless its clear, that there's no other resolution, is to act as though nothing's happened, even if you do, can we not fight again ??? talking abt my mom again, who else ?? Everyone's somewhere else... feel like a housewife stuck at hm all the time... having severed all social ties... but not to worry, i will not harm myself, i think... we'll see, coz i juz wanna see nandy again when she returns... 18 goddamned days to go till then... haiz, its 4 am alredi, better sleep for another shitstorm day 2moro... Night...

It's nearing to 5am... on the 9th of december, I cannot sleep... Heard Nandhini's voice juz hours ago... mom's in hospital right now.... I'm alone with siblings at home...thats the situation, somehow, i'm feeling fearful alot... Mom's gonna have a cesarian, risky risky, don't even want to think or talk abt it. Sibs however offer relief as they ain't crying anymore. Now, alone, i weep as they sleep on. Death, its been haunting me, a sudden bleeding nose, worsening chest pains. Whats wrong with me ? news sometime ago told of youngsters and teens dying in their sleep with unknown reasons. And the only known symptoms include mine. As Holiday boredom kicked in on another sleepless night, i wrote a note in the case of my death, what was i thinking ? heh, things for me now either goes on improving, or takes a nose dive to hell, mom giving birth, and how it results decides which way it'll be... Now, i carry on finishing up all the unposted posts.

She's in India, I'm here in S'pore. I'm missing her, so so badly... heard her voice today... I am happy abt that, but its only made my wait for her ever more exgruciating... Feeling so very lonely... glad this only happens once a year at most... She's gonna get one heck of a greeting from me when i see her again... She gloats of her home in India, but it has no Internet, and not even a home phone line... Not like they all carry working handphones... and working as in free roaming, international numbers... haiz... GRRRRRRRRRRRRR !?!?!?!? F**K !? F**K !? F**K !? All the time i spend out, i never fail to see couples roaming about, oh how I envy them, holding their girlfriends and showering them with little pecks on their lips... NO FAIR !? I'm in the later stages of girlfriend-withdrawal-syndrom... And i've gone mad, find myself singing to High School Musical, enjoying Justin Timberlake, tapping to PCD, swaying to all those songs she loved... I am missing her so...Come back to me safely baby... I miss you so... sob sob at least i save more $$$ for our annivasary... Haha.... Lalalala....

Woke at 9am, got dressed, took MRT to Harbourfront, got to Golden Village Cinema at 10.30 juz in time to catch "Flags Of Our Fathers", alas, my first NC16 movie in a cinema. the 2 and a half hr movie was done around 1... The huge dose of gore was a treat after my long deprivation of war violence. Get the sms from Hana that she needs clothes, of all things, so i grab the smallesat sized clothes at Giant Vivomart and headed over to palawan beach, with no one else i knew besides Firah, Hana, and that junior of mine, What's his name again ? Ah, can't be bothered, he's juz irritating. Dun like his vibe, heh. Sat down to draw, the scene set the perfect mood for me to do so... though i couldn't help but be reminded of the gore from the beaches of Iwojima in the movie as i stood on palawan beach. I was wearing anything BUT beach gear... luckyly no sand got into my shoes and i was considerably clean after that. Its 3, and Hana, Firah and me prep to leave, regrett packing so fast coz i had to wait half an hour for em, as they struggled to dry themselves without a towel, using any means possible. Yet they were still wet... headed back to Harbourfront MRT and we went to Dhoby Ghaut juz for Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream at the Cathay. Dunno wad made me agree, but we decided to walk all the way to Orchard road from there... Met up with Syahmil and his cousin who was working at Wheelock. Roamed borders, to find interesting books, like... Uhhhh.... I forgot..... haha... there was one arguing the stupidity of believing in god. and another on how to have better sex... My fav... haha... but its like nth new, haiz, been there done that. Tantric, Weird Locations, stuff like that... hah... came out to set the momentum for the bunch ( Hana,Firah,Syahmil) who had no clue where to go or what to do... headed to Ngee Ann City to enlighten them by revealing the Art Haven's loction... A place so well concealed. Somewhere along this trip in the city, Hana boldly declared she knew more about Orchard than me, to her dismay, she was proven otherwise, muahahahahahahahahahahaha, by yours truly, the orchard tour guide, hehe. got stuffs from art friend, checked out a japanese art workshop and "The Better Toy Shop"... So much to see... Got a call from mom suddenly, and i find out she's at vivocity too !? like WTF... I was expected to be there the whole time... She tells me i can head back late, i cover up, telling her i'm heading to orchard at that point though i alredi was there... So on and so forth... left Ngee Ann City to Orchard MRT, bought Famous Amos cookies, and me and the bunch went different ways, hana, firah and syahmil heading hm, I, heading to Vivocity, again, to meet up with mom, part of her instuctions. by then, my legs were dead, I walked abt vivo, stood in my train rides, walked up and down palawan beach, now, i walk abt vivo again, with my mom. Sibs play water later and the playground, which were both reminiscent of my movie that day, with palawan beachand the jap art shop all ever so familiar to the movie.... Exhausted, we head hm. I arrived at vivo as it was opening and now i leave as it closes... Learnt one thing though, memorized the layout of Vivocity, so now i'm not only your best choice for a tourguide of Orchard, but for Vivo as well, haha...