Zim

I don't feel right, i always say that, but its even more so these days... somethings wrong with me alrite... dunno wad... Emotions ? Health ? Soul ? Guilt ? I really do not know... though an old friend of mine returned recently, he's name's Suicide, getting the urge to pick up that blade again, eat that spoon of detergent, all that stuff... being treated like shit... not so bad lah, but in a way i really really hate... when something happens, like, say, u fight with me, the last thing you should do unless its clear, that there's no other resolution, is to act as though nothing's happened, even if you do, can we not fight again ??? talking abt my mom again, who else ?? Everyone's somewhere else... feel like a housewife stuck at hm all the time... having severed all social ties... but not to worry, i will not harm myself, i think... we'll see, coz i juz wanna see nandy again when she returns... 18 goddamned days to go till then... haiz, its 4 am alredi, better sleep for another shitstorm day 2moro... Night...