Zim

Things certainly were different at the beginning of this year, biggest change was that i was single back then... haha... Its beginning to relli show that i've grown, juz got a letter from MINDEF(some government thingy) abt exit permits and all tat crap which is juz basically the measures preventing me from running from NS, haiz, i only see it as a reminder tat i'm old. O'levels coming next year, yipee !!! HAHAHA... Well, topping bio sure felt good, better keep it tat way, still lets not forget i bottomed the class with my chem and Amath... Still quite jumpy as i write this, juz completed two mini adventure games, "5 Days A Stranger" and its sequel, "7 Days A Sceptic". Though their graphics suck and gameplay, simplistic. It has a damn engrossing storyline which got me hooked. Kinda scary too, especially "7 Days A Sceptic". Search yahoo for it and download it if u wanna try... Guess i've side tracked... back to my self realization, Promising myself to work hard for next year, only obstacle, the Amath probation test... I juz gotta pass this one... Expecting to be dissapointed after it all, but i still am gonna try for it. There are also those in my class who might face retainment, or demotion, i relli feel sorry for these people even if it was their fault for such an outcome. For all i noe, it could be me...

Well, things seem to be looking up for Nandy, she seems to be improving, I hope it only gets better from here, I've realised that i do wanna be with her for the rest of my life, and i will not give up on her. Dun haf to think abt leaving her sooner or later anymore... Life from here on looks promising for me... Now i can only strive to make sure things stay that way.... and this is the end of another boring post...

7 months 4 days,
or
218 days,
or
5232 hours,
or
313920 minutes,
or
18835200 seconds.

Still, every second of that 18835200 seconds, I will always remember, my truly first kiss, my first lover, my first everything...

As much as i dread to say this, i have to enlighten you ppl,
and hopefully, it might ease my pain...

I, as of 12th October 2006, at 11.47, have lost her...

I will miss her so...

How i would caress her cheek,

How i held her in my arms,

The way she'd complain abt her day,

The way she'd keep accidentally whacking my balls with those
swinging arms of hers(especially how they'd hurt),

How she would then beg for forgiveness,

The jokes we'd share,

The nasty comments on ppl we hate,

The fights we had,

The tears we shed together,

Those quiet moments together,

The long trips home in each others arms,

The warmth of her body,

That smile of hers,

I will miss everything,

Leaving me was something you had to do, and i understand your decsicion, It was just too much pressure from all around, I will try to resume life as normal as it was, and i hope you would and can do so too. But can things ever go back to the way it was, guess that fag, Kit Ki was right after all, he asked what i would do if Nandy left someday, saying it was inevitable,
I went and bitched back abt his mom, asking wad he would do when death inevitably comes for his mother... Now he's off my back... Still being pissed abt wad i said abt his mom.

dunno when i'll stop crying everytime i think abt us... changed, thats whats happened to everything around me...

Now I'll see if i have anyone there for me anymore... Something i am utterly unsure of...

This was wad happened, published my previous post, moments later she calls, and I finally hear it, "i love you to ok ?". those words of hers, how they soothe my pain, my worries, how relieved i feel, the weight of worry lifted off my shoulders... Thanx baby, now I'm off to bathe, hahahaha.... Gonna be meeting her...

Seven months, has it been that long ? So much has changed, one thing's for sure, its been the best seven months of my life, never been happier, smily, yet teary at the same time crying tears of joy and despair, i love her so much, and i relli dun care but i AM gonna spend the rest of my life with her... May it last for 50 years ? 25 ? 10 ? 1 ? maybe even a month ? a week ? a day ? Who noes ? But that does not change a thing... I still will love her to the fullest... We've gone thru so much together, and i hope and expect for more to come, so we can go thru it together, and emerge, stronger. But is it relli turning out tha way ? Are you getting stronger or is it taking its toll on you ? Whatever happens, i juz wanna be there for you... Or am I the cause of your misery in the first place, I love her, is it wrong of me to do so ? seems loving someone has always been a sin for me. will it be the same ? There's just so many ways of losing you, even being too much afraid of losing you is one... I know i said things that hurt you last night, but I only wanted you to change, not who you are, but for the better... I love who you are... But still you could be more... Juz as i was once a latecomer, i've changed for the better, but not who i am... It is in this way i want you to change... You say you're hurt till things won't be the same again... Have i lost you ? I don't noe, not how you feel, not about how things are gonna be, not what i'm supposed to do... A chance meeting by fate for you, and you could find someone new, someone better, who noes ? I certainly don't... I juz need to hear you say that you love me, something i've not heard since last night, and with every passing moment, the worry gets worse... I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU NANDHINI, and i'm sorry, guess these words, you have heard many times, but is it once too many already ? I'm not questioning whether you love me, i juz need to hear it after last night...

Important annonouncement services reporting here once again with another exclusive (but rather late) insight. We brought you "The Haq Exclusive(part 1)", with an upcoming part two which covers his birthday !? With of course, all the exclusive pictures...

Our Sg Idols recently visited Causeway and the Important Announcement Services was there to check it out... Here are the shots taken by our budding photograper, ZiM... (LOLs)

ThEy

CaMe

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ThErE WaS JoN,

AnD ThEn ThErE WaS HaDy,

And tHeRe were their butts,

AnD a MuTtOn FrOm "MuTtOnS In ThE MoRnInG"

AnD Of CoUrSe tHe FaNs,

No Singing by them, juz signing...

Got more pics, but lazy to post, seriously how many pics of Hady or Jonathan would you possibly need ???

Thats it, ZiM signing off...