Its been more than a year since this blog got a post from me. Poor blog. lets give this another shot. see how long this leg will last. maybe this will help me grow less dependent on a certain sum1, so as to be..... less...... hmmm...... "pathetic"..... as she puts it. Said it before, saying it again, maybe i put too much heart into it ? She knows i can't let go, I know i can't let go, So is it her who plays me for a fool or am i playing myself for one. Started this year with a bang, i'll keep it going as far and as long as Azra'il's patience holds out. for certain things, certain endeavours, its momentum may have come to stagnation. What am i to do when i get shut out ? when i'm not spoken to by you, except for occasions, rare, then, back to a cold shoulder, is it as you'd say, "limits" ? that we should have them ? what suspicions do u hold against me ? I'd ask for you to have none. What happened to me being a great friend ? i feel abandonned, invisible, but Past thought me to detach, to detach one's self, to detach emotionally. I'd speak, if you'd bother to notice me....